And then there was only one.

Wow. I've gone from being involved with 4 women to just the one in a three week span, one of whom was the most important person in my life. My close friends wonder why I'm suicidal. I wonder why I haven't done it. I KNOW it would make a lot of people happy if I did. I'd lke to post a lot more, but that would require energy. More than anything, I wish she'd just talk to me. Any even small scrap of human kindness would go a very long way for me right now. I'm going to visit my folks for X-mas, and now I don't even have anyone to watch the cats. I had to call Her husband and ask him to do it. Well, I didn't so much call as IM. Sigh. Still. Everyone tells me I shouldn't talk to him, and I think they're most likely right, but I have almost no friends locally as it is. I've never been so alone.