But if you ask for a rise, it's no suprise, that they're giving none away...

So, today I got my year end review. I couldn't possibly be happier! I had a really difficult time my first year here. I was on all the wrong medications, and my work performance really suffered. It was to the point, that if I was late, or called in sick one more time, I was most likely gone.

I decided that I wasn't going to accept that. I wasn't going to accept that from myself, first and foremost. Against my Dr's advice, I got off the medication. I then got a new Dr. Next, after detoxing, I spent every day concentrating on work. Work, work, work, and more work.

A year later, My evaluation was 4.1 out of 5.0 - and NO ONE got 5's this year, period. I have been promoted to something called a "Report Engineer" - I'm not 100% sure what that means yet, but I do write almost all of our documentation, manage several very technical tasks,and make sure we stay SarBox compliant.

All in all, it's been very good. The main thing I am taking away from this - I can't slow down. I need to maintain this same pace, and find ways to make it even better if I can.

Dear Dot

You don't have to worry about talking to me - your cowardice in this regard has payed off. Steve told me the truth. I wish you had told me the truth, from the start. I take some (very) small comfort in knowing that whatever you do will come back to you three fold. I hope it doesn't have the same effect on you that it did on me. I know you don't have the necessary self-honesty to see just how wrong it was for you to use me like that, and then spit me out on the sidewalk like chewing gum that had lost its flavor, but I'd still like the money back I paid for your damn groceries. It was just over $300. I'm negative, and out of food. Not that I expect I'll see it. Anyone who could use someone like that clearly has no shame.